MY WEEK…BUT ONLY IF YOURE INTO OVER SHARING…
Many have been too scared to ask, and those who have asked, I’ve
told- but tonight, as I sit here- feeling so content and ready for the week, I feel
the need to share my week.
It will go down as a week to remember.
On the 16th of June, I had a procedure done,
called a laparoscopy- it’s when a gynaecologist goes through your belly button
and removes endometriosis. Endometriosis is another word for growths. Cysts. Whatever.
Point is, if you don’t remove it, you stand the chance of not having
babies, or a struggle to have babies. Also- it’s painful. My gynae was overseas, so I had another gynae
do it for me. I was in and out of theatre in 20 minutes.
Over the weekend of 15,16th September, I had
severe cramps. I was also bleeding a bit… I had a suspicion that I might be
pregnant, so I didn’t take Myprodol, but by Monday I was in so much pain, and needed something strong, so I bought a
pregnancy test- knowing it was just too early to test, but still did it.( I needed
Myprodol man!!)
Positive.
We were pregnant.
Right there and then I drove to my awesome gynae who
delivered Hunter, and his wife insisted I rather see him than just get a script
for pain.
He sees me, and what does he see on the scan? Two huge 4cm
endiomes on both sides of my ovaries. The other gynae had merely sucked out the
growths- he didn’t scoop them out surgically.
Dr van Tonder looked at me with concern. No “ hanky panky”,
no driving, strong meds, sick leave. There is a chance of miscarriage- those
cysts are just too big and will go away after 12 weeks.
Driving to the gynae I had this intense need to wait until I
showed, or even until I at least knew the gender before I told anyone. (Im funny like that), but now I didn’t want to
tell because I didn’t want to get everyone excited.
I started writing “I love you baby” on my Facebook page, or
SVR (Storm van Renen), just because I was so excited. I was only two weeks into
it, but already acted like the baby was kicking and moving. I wanted to believe
that Storm was going to make it.
The week passed. By the next Tuesday, after being in bed
most of the time, the pain was back. Now, even more intense. I drove back to Dr
van Tonder after smsing him. He inserted the scanner- and his eyes told me I was
in trouble. He asked me whether we were
naughty. I laughed. Did he know Loedi?
When it came to the safety of his children…
Well im bleeding internally. I had a rupture. The cysts were even bigger. I suddenly learned a new word “ECTOPIC
pregnancy”. Buis swangerskap. And this ectopic pregnancy that had ruptured
needed to be removed. Scraped. Aborted. D and C. So many fancy words to just say- the
baby had reached the end of its journey.
I stayed calm as I put my clothes back on and waited for my
darling husband. Only when I saw him I burst into tears. He just kept rubbing
my back hard. I know now he was devastated.
They broke theatre for me, and within an hour I was on the
operating table.
He worked on me for an hour or so. Apparently there was a
LOT more stuff inside that he didn’t even see on the scan before.
Waking up was horrible. I was in so much pain, and that pain
stayed with me for four days.
On Wednesday night I woke up at 2am and just sobbed my heart
out. It felt like someone was kicking and poking and delving for diamonds
inside my tummy. Loedi woke up, fetched my meds, and just stroked my head until
I eventually fell asleep again. He also woke up for Hunter twice. I fell in
love with him all over again.
My sister was also awesome. She had even gotten a speed fine
for me. It sounds funny, but it actually wasn’t. She got pulled over, driving the right speed,
because she KNEW that they trapped there. The lady approached her and Carien
immediately said that she didn’t speed, and that she really had to go because
she had to come to the hospital. The lady told her not to be cheeky, and went
back to her car. Deliberately sat there for five minutes! By that time carien
was traumatised and ready to freak out. The R1000 fine didn’t make it better.
Two days later someone jammed her car door lock and ripped out her R2000 car
radio.
Also on Wednesday, the electricity went off. Our landlord and
Just letting was to blame. We rectified everything on Thursday morning, but no
one came to switch it back on. It only got fixed by a friend of ours contact a
few hours ago. All the stuff in our fridge has gone off. We had to go to our
friends over the weekend to shower, bath and watch rugby…also try and finish my
year end portfolio due on Wednesday. All this while trying to come over what
had happened to me mentally and physically.
I was just so upset by the bad service and state of our
country. The traffic department, the municipality, the thieves. That got me
more than the heart stuff.
I then found that hair competition for the clip ins, and ive
always wanted it, and that pretty much kept me busy during this time! Im really
sorry for being so irritating with regards to that, but when youre stuck in bed…
At the end Loedi and I just realised that the devil will try
his hand at everything to come between the love of Christ and our Love for Him.
Yes we lost a a baby, but atleast I am clean now, and the next attempt wont put
my life or Storms’ life in danger next time around. I also fell more in love
with Loedi than ever. The electricity situation forced us to laugh, play and
hang together as a family with no TV or cell phones. I also rested properly.
God always knows better.
And for I Know His plan is to have us prosper and not be
harmed.
